the best men prefer old pipes and torn jackets
2011-10-17 10:35 p.m.

i met a fantastic boy. he has a lovely name that i must share: --------. and the rhyme you hear is ridiculous and unintentional. but nonetheless, it is a name my mouth will never tire of saying. try saying it once. its like eating ice cream or inhaling soft smoke. i suppose he is like a grown up MD and not a boy, but i don't really think of him like that. he's the boy i would have wanted to sit next to in biology. instead of sitting next to brett hensley who was always an ass to me after copying my homework weekly.

we are already dead after a perfectly lovely summer that is clearly and easily forgotten by him. i would expound but fuck that. its painful.

as is having onabotulinumtoxin injected into your forehead. it's nearing halloween, and i can barely deliver an expression of suprise, let alone fear. perhaps the unintended result is that i will look super cool and unphased while watching horror films. i'm so fucking stupid. when you're 15 years old and going on your first date, nobody tells you that maybe one day you'll be 33 with crows feet, but still the body of a teenager. and still alone, in a meaningless job with no real purpose in life except that perhaps a sweet dog from the city shelter depends on you for kibbles. but, aside from that, you haven't helped a damned soul in the universe.

so with that consideration, i make the following lists:

things that were pretty when i was 15:
1. horses
2. brett hensley
3. history
4. summer days
5. uc davis basketball center evan jones from eugene oregon
6. kurt cobain's hair
7. the executive order allowing woment to fly war planes

things that were real when i was 15:
1. spanish
2. my horse
3. pearl jam
4. the dallas cowboys reign

things that are pretty when i'm 33:
1. pink drinks
2. starless nights
3. my dog charlie
4. koreans
5. smiles

things that are real when i'm 33:
1.
2.
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