"you will stay a mile away from me"
2002-08-20 10:51 a.m.

i'm in my room, hiding from my mother. my cat is making noise. i told marie it was an anne frank situation. it is kind of. because peter had that cat mouschi. and because she had a diary. even if she didn't have blue sweat pants. (you like?)

so next week i get to go back home. and back to classes. and maybe i'll get to boff this one professor, if it means he'll let me into his ancient philosophy class so that i don't have to take it in summer school, after graduation. except the professor's name is john, and i've kind of decided that i'm never going to boff anybody who shares the name of a guy my mom is boffing. no. no no no.

so that probably leaves like 3 or 4 names which i can choose from. like if your name is keanu, you can probably get in my pants. maybe. if you quit your pathetic band or at least rename it. not that i don't think dogstar is a good name, but you're a movie star. why didn't you call it "moviestar"? better yet why don't you call it "swimmingpools, moviestars"? or "dressy bessy"? which is your new favorite band, by the way. you know it is.

i just reread this and realized two things: one, my writing has the randomness of a shopping spree (you know, doesn't it seem like shopping sprees aren't offered as prizes any longer? that stinks. i never won one.) and two, i called berkeley home.

except when i'm in berkeley, i call loomis home. ummmm i feel really weirdly uncomfortable knowing that i refer to my home as anywhere i'm not. i can't really describe it. i guess its similar to the kind of feeling you got when somebody told you that your heart is the size of your closed fist. and it saddened you to know that there exists a similarity between a heart and a fist.

okay maybe that is a terrible comparison... its just that home isn't supposed to be some place you're always going to, but never arrive at.

home is such a silly concept anyway. i am done thinking about you, home.

hey, guess what i found out?

there are reasons not to superglue in the dark.

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