there is a light that never goes out
2017-05-26 3:04 a.m.

i am a bag of dicks for not being more upset about manchester. anger seems futile. in all aspects of life, really.

i've been thinking about the equation x = x + y. and why it is that y always has to equal zero. its fundamental, but so hard to grasp for me sometimes. like the word "the" or "as" or even "one". why does y have to equal zero. can't it exist for once?

i checked my credit score today which is 810. and my lines of credit equal 90k. if i sold my house, i would regain 200k. and have 40k in the bank. i'm not rich. but its nice to imagine the kind of life i could live. the newness of a free life and the ease with which i could travel. i could live a good life through january 29 if i wanted to.

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